Venus blending with Saturn
(power = 9.79 and this aspect is discordant = -2.45)
You find it difficult to connection intimately. Painful experiences from your past cause you to keep your romantic feelings reserved as you worry that the past may repeat itself. Instead of going through the pain again, you have decided to withhold any sort of vulnerability. Solid, impenetrable, and alone. Due to the situations you have been through, others may see you as emotionless, not caring one way or another. You must foster warmth and find a way to let others in despite what may occur. Keep in mind that you will be unable to have a deeply fulfilling emotional connection with someone if you keep your feelings locked away; love needs to be allowed to flow both ways for it to be real. This placement challenges you to love without expectations. Allow yourself to feel fully, do not hold yourself back, and you will have learned the ultimate lesson.
Opening up to others may happen slowly for you, as you may have trouble trusting people. You have put up very sturdy walls that may not be so easily knocked down. Deep down you worry that perhaps you are not worth loving, that just as yourself you fall short somehow. However, these worries are just your imagination teaming up with insecurity; you are just as worthy of being loved as anyone else. You must alter the way you go about matters concerning love. Others try to love you but often you close off to them, forcing them to abandon their efforts. Allow real love a chance and let people in. Even if you do get hurt, brush it off and try again; it only has to work ONCE.
In the end, the lesson here is for you to develop self-love and appreciation, and to convey the warmth you feel inside more overtly. Material possessions will not express how you truly feel, you must do this with sincere feeling. Look inside of yourself more often so that you can decipher the complicated emotions you often deal with internally. When your inner nature is truly recognised, you are able to be faithful and dutiful to the ones you care for. You tend to take your relationships seriously and may even choose partners that are more mature than you. Age tends to play a card in general when it involves romantic relationships, as you are likely to find someone significantly younger as well! Perhaps you can foster forgiveness when you feel that someone has inadvertently done you harm; keep an eye on your sensitivity. Your moments of insecurity will bring forth many issues that have been buried, often for good reason, and your relationships will suffer because of it.
Physical affection is another area in which you find trouble. It would be best for you to learn to share yourself with another. Sharing your material assets does not come easily to you either. However, the more you withhold these things from those you care about, the harder the situation will become for you. When your life is ending you will not have use for the things you own, so you may wish to consider sharing what you have while you still have it. Material possessions do not realistically give you emotional security, and though you may feel that they do, this is not actually the case. What is truly valuable is to give what you have to create happiness for others. One thing can be said for sure, your friendship is strong and true, and others can count on you to be there for them.